the demise of my coaching career

losing makes you question why you love basketball so much.

makes you ask why you spent so much time watching NBA, PBA, and International games. makes you ask why you play the game with so much vigor wanting to excel in it even if you're not 6 feet tall. makes you ask why you skip board review classes just to mentor a team led by an allen iverson-play-alike which makes you realize larry brown's headaches with the 76ers. makes you ask why you simulate those shadow 3-point shots a la dirk nowitzki. makes you ask why you breathe and live basketball.

i sacrificed a lot for this team. i believed in them. maybe all i was asking was for them to respect my decisions as coach. and when those simple gestures are lost, it's time to know when it's time to step down.

although my star player apologized and even motioned for me to play again (i acted as full-time coach this year), you will ask those questions again and again and again. can you ask your star player not to play hero all the time and share the spotlight to at least a second star player? as michael jordan to scottie pippen? just to remember that we are not professionals, but friends.

we were blown out by almost 20 points by our rival organization. we were shut out of making it to the finals game. i asked myself, "can i do this again next year?" i answered, "i can't allot much time for this if ever i will take my masterals, more so if i already work."

it's time to quit.