a day of hopeful redemption. i won't be able to stand
five days without an image or presence. hopeful albeit impelled.
90 minutes early. though i learn that there will be no meeting, i felt the need to wait. i
have to wait. even though i was able to calm myself and go through the motions of everyday goals and objectives after what happened yesterday, i still long for that little speck inside infinitum to see that instant right in front my eyes. to feel that moment which is a fragment of our daily lives
. uoyhtiwebot.
it happened. information dissemination is at lost so a presence in that stage transpired. a joyous occasion of simplex ideals. a venue for exchange of thoughts.
uoywonkot.
yet a motion to leave was signalled. a blank thought occurred. i was stopped on my tracks by indecision. their presence quickly dissolved.
what was i doing? am i to wait only to let the moment slip away?
i wasn't thinking quick on my feet. indecision: the thin line that separates epic and tragedy. i collected my thoughts. and motioned on running down the stairs.
fortunately, it wasn't very far. stationed on wooden benches, i motioned to accompany their presence. though there i was. obvious. jittery. exposed. yet fruitful on learning more.
though it was a definite deficit, i have to live with it. that single imprecision could have paid a price. never knowing i would commit another imprecision again like leaving unaccompanied and all alone. i'm really sorry. it's just that i thought i was already a bother to your concentration. a hindrance to focus. with those coming exams and all. not knowing if it's really the case.
only hoping. hoping for understanding.